squeegy suzi

Saturday, April 12, 2008

realised that i havnt blogged for a while..alot of things has happened that i cant even rem them to blog...easter is here, went to LA to see Justin with louise, had alot of fun! LA is the best! so sunny n laid back n full of celebs..but sadly didnt c any but did meet a paparazzi guy n chatted to him...went to san fran also, drove dwn but not so nice there full of homeless ppl..shopped alot ate alot n took alot of fotoes! also bort a macbook n a new ipod! yeh!!!!!!

now im in philippines...heehee...visiting family but beginning to regret coming cos i got so much wk to do that i left til las min! got bout 3wks left so i gotta really do it!! also chua visitd me n we shopped evryday too haha...my foot has been hurt cos i tripped over my shoes n it was swollen! no running or tennis for like 3 weeks feel like a fatty..but playd its much beta now so i played tennis today yeh!!

been having an interesting time...haha....i feel changes r comin! thinkin bout the future, need t find sumwhere t live or find ppl to live wit me..also job search..first wana finish masters n then we'll c wot happens....but i can feel sumthin....excited but also scared and unsure...

squeegy winks

at ~10:34 AM~

Monday, February 11, 2008

feel so depressed these days once again...jus dun c the point of anything, where am i headed wot is the point? Have so many things....disappointd in myself..so silly and stupid..n feel like have noone to talk to bout my problems...noone at all...mayb im not close enough to frens theyre ppl ill hang out wit have fun, but not anyone i wud or cud tell my problems to n find comfort bak..mayb at the end of the day only we can help ourselves, and shudnt b looking to others for solutions. Only we can do the rite thing n make evrything beta...to a certain extent...i dunno..

must control my life its up to me...noone can help tho i wish the person closest to me cud make me feel beta again...but i have known i will find no peace there rite from the beginning yet i chose to stay, mayb i am strong enuf for both of us, i hope so..i will find peace in my heart and be happy again...i wish i cud go bak to school days, first loves r wonderful arent they..so innocent and think evrything will b fine and nothing will hurt u...i wud say i was so happy bak then. School was fun the summers were warm and long...living in the suburbs so nice and green...jus want to capture that feeling again so i can take a sip wen i am down...

dont think this is about u, its bout me...dun turn it around to b bout u for once, i hope this is a phase cos i dun like it....

squeegy winks

at ~1:29 AM~

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

its 2008! a new yr to do new things..i will continue striving to b skinny as a stick insect..argh realise my thighs r bbigger! i think too much running..i shall have to do sum other legs things i think but only running makes me feel like ive had a gd tiring wkout...well anyways...i shall b skinny! n try my apple diet again..been craving sweets lately tho! sweeties.....i love sweets such a swt tooth...v bad...

anyways exams in a week so crap man..i dun even feel stressed u no which is so bad. i need to feel scared but i hav been going to study in tanaka evryday wit al n then we go gym togther too which is a nice break...then again he always brings tasty snaks n sweeties which is bad for me...well..tanaka is a realy nice place to study got heaters n evrything! so nice n warm!

i hope i dun fail too badly in exams....i dun think i rem anything ive revised...its all very philosophical so mayb i can jus blag my way thru...

anyways newyrs n christmas was spent at home alone i thnk..i cant actually rem xmas now seems so long ago...but i think i was at home..yup, alone..haha so sad rite...colin went to his frens at chamberlain n evona not here...But well, thats life...new yrs i watchd the countdown on tv quite nice...talkd to chua abit too tho he celebrated his new yrs 8hrs earlier..

i jus wanna get these exams over wit then i wanna apply for a harolds job need money, hav ike £50 in my account now n dad doesn wanna give me more..so sad...but well thats life too...jus wana b happy

squeegy winks

at ~1:36 AM~